I’m not afraid any more
- now I’m demanding
and arrogant.
I’m angry at everyone
and blame them for wasting
my energy and time.
Oh, Ba’ba’,
how easy it is
to “fall out of Love”
like I’ve never felt
it’s all “You”
and it’s all “mine”.
Change me, please,
into such one
who can remember
always and forever
Your Name
and Your Smile.
Dusting, scrubbing, repainting,
fitting furniture
and shopping for appliances
is holy enough
and a worship all right
when I remember
that everywhere,
in everything
we hold each other
so very, very tight…
Oh, I know, I know
why You’ve made our hands:
so we can raise them to You
and catch Your own
and that You would be embraced!
And I understand
why You’ve created our eyes:
so You can gaze into them,
wipe our tears
and see Yourself reflected.
In my peculiar lovingness
I’ve accepted your golden hue
as my Lord and Master.
Alas,
I am a poor student
and often,
instead of transmuting my dross,
I’d rather impose myself
as your Lady and Mistress…
hastening a disaster.
Oh, I am a proof
that a philosopher’s stone
is nothing and no one “outside”
but: my own (un)willing mind.
Love blesses
the worshiped
as much as it does
the worshiper.
There is no humiliation
in humility
and no abuse
in complete surrender.
On Whose feet
we lay our heads
also grows
in magnanimity
and His/Her Love
generously spreads.
Eh, My Love,
we haven’t spoken in a while,
though I did lots of talking
in the mean time.
But, I haven’t: listened.
Not to that part
of my little heart
which is forever in love
only with Your smile.
And now that I do;
that once again
I float on the kiirtan-wave,
I cry and cry
as my worries melt away…
Why do I always
want “more”
and why can’t I stay
in here and now
instead of fussing
about “elsewhere”,
“later” and “before”?
And why do I have to
know “why”
- it often just wastes
my energy and time.
The one who watches
from within and above
has time and space to love
the way it’s best to love.
It’s hard to give up that
which you don’t have
enough of yet.
And because
the external world is limited
the frustration has no end.
Yet, inside
we are infinite and eternal
so: invest in the Joy Internal!
It’s not that I want
to be happy and at peace
- it is that I need
that safety and ease.
If I don’t eat or sleep,
protect myself
and creatively express,
I’ll surely be under stress.
And when these
are taken care of
and timely fulfilled,
I’m calm and quiet…
… and the gentle love for all
is spontaneously revealed.