Arpan’a’

LETTING GO

Didi — Thu, 03 May 2012 16:15:42 +0000

When will I be “ready”?

The very moment I drop
wondering
and arguing
about it.
That’s about “it”.

So: do it!

I.e.: stop “doing it”;
stop even waxing poetic
about it.

ME, ETERNALLY

Didi — Thu, 03 May 2012 14:50:57 +0000

Why do I always want to be
someone else?
Why do I always want to have
something else?
Why do I have to
know “why”?
Who cares?!
- Not even I!

It’s a habit
and an addiction;
nervous restlessness
without restriction
- a decadence
of a “thinking” type.

Who says I “have to”
think in order to “be”?
Am I not,
always, always, always:
ME.

PUN

Didi — Thu, 03 May 2012 14:47:47 +0000

The shock is just there
to show you
another possibility.

No need to take seriously
any (dis)ability!

ALL-PURPOSEFUL

Didi — Thu, 03 May 2012 14:43:12 +0000

Be my Answer
and my Question,
be my Master
and my Guide.

Be my Parent,
best Friend,
one Husband
and my only Child.

ORDAINED

Didi — Thu, 03 May 2012 14:36:31 +0000

The only freedom I have
is to return to You
again and again.

HAVE PITY

Didi — Thu, 03 May 2012 14:31:38 +0000

So, You’ve made me
for Your pleasure
and want me to remember
that You are
my only pleasure too.
Oh, how sweetly
-and cruelly -
jealous of You.

Yet, it isn’t You
who’s mean
but: me.
Me, who neglects
my first and best
Lover and Beloved
in my fickle memory.

Call me ungrateful,
deluded,
unfaithful…
- all is true.
Still, have pity
on a tiny drop
of my sincerity.

Turn my face to Yours
and hold it there
for good.
May Your eyes,
Your lips,
Your fingertips
draw into themselves
my every mood.

RE-CREATIVE

Didi — Thu, 03 May 2012 14:28:22 +0000

It’s about time
that I create
a new Lord Of My Life
instead of new me.
Myself I already
(more or less) know
but: who is He?

There’s much
I’ve heard and read,
and made a picture
of my interpretation
of what they‘ve
said and meant.
Sure, I’ve fashioned it
with my brush and colors
but haven’t dared
to drop the influences
entirely yet.

Well, I should:
so He can be
my own answer
to my every wish and need.
If He made me
to make Himself happy
let me do the same, too:
make Him such
that this “me”
is completely reflected
in that “You”.

I may never know
for sure
what He said and did,
far less what He thought
while He walked
in this world.
I only know
that I may remember
Him as a Cause
and an Answer
to my every mood.

No one else
will ever fit
that bill completely
- only make obvious
those parts of me
which hid discreetly.
These aspects of me
are aspects of Him
which He wants revealed
to Himself through me.

My role is to live them
with Him as a fulfillment
of our every dream.

DAR(L)ING

Didi — Thu, 03 May 2012 14:21:40 +0000

There’s no fear in Your Love,
no anger, no shyness,
no hatred and no
any kind of anxiety.
You’re not in a rush
and you don’t
linger and delay
- You’re just
here and now,
at ease and at peace
in any and every way.

You do not worry
about leaving
and getting lost;
You do not object
to madness of any kind
- I am forever Yours
and perfect
in Your heart and mind.

Let me not grieve, then,
over anything,
and enjoy every moment
and aspect of our life
- it’s just me,
and in Your eyes
I’m all Divine.

So, come and love me now
in every way I’d like
- show me to myself
and reveal
Your boundless acceptance
from all sides.

To absorb and to create,
as well as to share
- that’s what I long to dare.

WUTHERING HEIGHTS

Didi — Thu, 03 May 2012 14:10:54 +0000

When the tempest roars
in my chest
and a volcano spews
through my eyes and lips
all I long for
is Compassion
to seat me
on Its knees
and wrap me tight
to Its heart.

Oh, to rest, to rest
and regain
the gentle rhythm
once again…

THE END OF UTILITARIANISM

Didi — Thu, 03 May 2012 13:58:01 +0000

The meaning of life
(for those who obsess
about “meanings” and
“purposes” enough)
is to find out
that Life is grand
withouth bothering
about such stuff.