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FINAL ANSWER

I prayed for You
to come
and You did.
Then You asked me
what I want
and I – hid…

“To love, remember
and obey You,”
I said.
To which You replied:
“You already do
all of that!”

“Is it enough?”
I questioned,
in surprise.
“It’s O.K,
don’t worry,”
You advised.

“Then how can I be
still so unhappy?”
I inquired…
then understood:
it’s the bliss
that I really required!

“Oh, but what if
I lose You
in my joy?!”
“No, you can’t
’cause ‘you’ are:
My joy!”

BITTER TRUTH (2)

No one
can rescue you
from anything
– only the Self
may rescue you
from:
yourself.

My Creator,
best Lover
and Liberator
is,
has always been
and will be:
Me.

IMPOSSIBLE TALE

Oh, Divine Madman,
when will I
tell them
all abut “You”,
and You
– all about “them”?

EXCLUSIVITY

Will anyone ever know
my sweetest
and softest parts?
Anyone except that One
Who made and hid them
from everyone?

Are they only
for His enjoyment
and even I will meet them
only in dreams and glimpses
and never, ever
share them with any one?

LETTING (GO & IN)

When do we
become free?

When we stop
making a point
out of it:
when we drop
proving anything
and move on.

Then we are strong,
healthy
and happy;
relaxed,
yet ready
for everything.

TRUE REASONS AND CONSEQUENCES

I am mad
because I’m afraid.
Afraid of
the Lonely Immensity
in Which I stand
– small and fragile
and so, so separate.

And I am afraid
of my fear
and of pain;
afraid even of
Love…
which I hate
over and again.

All I need to do
is: nothing
– stand still
and watch,
just watch
and breathe
till all is nil.

Then “near”
and “far”,
“together”
and “divided”
merge and dissolve
into That
Which Never Minded.

CRUSHING

So, what were you
expecting from me:
an “unquestioning submission
to your authority”?

Are you able to relate
only from a pulpit?
– Maybe your “teacherdom”
is a real culprit?!

And “since I’m not
a student good enough”
you “have every reason
to play tough”?!

Well, tough luck, indeed:
it has never been
only a “teacher”
that a student may need

– a parent, a sibling,
a child, a friend…
each one’s “a beloved”,
don’t you understand?

And you teach always
by your actions,
which, like anyone else’s,
are full of imperfections…

If I am wrong
why are you offended
– what are your expectations
that “deserve to be defended”?

And you allow
– don’t you see –
and want for yourself
what’s denied to me!

* * *
So, what do you think
I’m actually learning?
To be a stubborn preacher
who doesn’t yield,
who’s always right
and in charge of every field!

Maybe the day comes
when the crusher of egos
will have his ego crushed
and burst freely
in a rapturous dance
at his last chance…

DEFLATE(D)

So,
your self-pity
is more worthy
of compassion
than mine,
and your obsession
with your mental objects
is more healthy
than mine,
and your experiences
are smarter
than mine…

Well, good for you.
And: bye-bye!

CUTTING THROUGH ILLUSIONS

My parents,
my buddies,
my mentors
and my sweethearts:
thank you and goodbye.

– I looked through you
and saw:
you are I.

VENUS

If all
that others have ever been
is: mirrors
for my every error and whim,
then
let’s place them on the shelf
and look
directly at myself.