Arpan’a’ » Orange sakura (2008 – 2010)

ESCAPING AUSTERITY

Didi — Sat, 27 Nov 2010 15:03:36 +0000

Once upon a time
I used to overeat
to stop thinking.

Now I overthink
to avoid
dissolving and disappearing.

Oh, anything, any trick
suits the greedy mind
bent on overindulging…

Didi — Sat, 27 Nov 2010 14:59:39 +0000

Are my nerves
strong enough
to support
turning within
and turning off
all the chattering?

Didi — Sat, 27 Nov 2010 14:56:04 +0000

Let there be peace:
let there be silence.

Only then will cease
external and internal violence.

Didi — Sat, 27 Nov 2010 14:53:29 +0000

Oh, stop, just stop!
Who cares
what and how and why?

What matters is only:
I am.
Alive.

Didi — Sat, 27 Nov 2010 14:48:08 +0000

I go on thinking
’cause I can’t stop.
I can’t stop
’cause I don’t want.

I don’t want to stop
revenging
to the Universe
for not obeying: me.

While it, actually, does -
my reality is unraveling
exactly the way
I’m intending it:

the same old dramatic
and self-damaging way,
as if there are no Universal Laws
I also have to obey…

Didi — Mon, 22 Nov 2010 18:01:58 +0000

When we sing Your Name, Lord,
don’t You feel joy?

And don’t You smile
watching our smiles
and kiss a thousand times
our tearful eyes?

Didi — Mon, 22 Nov 2010 17:59:28 +0000

How long,
how wide,
how deep is your love?

And does it come
from within, from outside,
from below or from above?

Didi — Mon, 22 Nov 2010 17:57:54 +0000

I’ve found a pearl
then lost it
somewhere.

No problem:
other pearls
are out there.

Didi — Mon, 22 Nov 2010 17:38:42 +0000

Maybe I am not
attached to You
but to “my way”
of loving You?

And maybe it’s so hard
because You’d like it
to get undone
so a better one can start?!

O.K., my Love,
let it be:
do whatever You deem necessary
as long as You love me!

Help me to hand over
all my worries
into Your hands,
from now till it’s over…

Didi — Mon, 22 Nov 2010 17:34:36 +0000

Whatever You do,
don’t take away
this love for You.

Without it
I’m worse off
and a bigger misfit.

I’d rather die
than live
a greater lie.